The view out my front door, which goes on for miles and miles and MILES. No really. We are so grateful to be here, in this place, at this time, in a home of our own.
I assume that one day you will come to me wanting to know who you are, where you came from, where your other family is and why they gave you to us. I offer you little bits of information already, but certainly not crumbs enough to satisfy the appetite. Perhaps it won't matter to you. I am assuming a lot, already, about how adoption will impact your life. People often wonder why adoptive parents are hurt when their children seek out biological roots. I have the answer, and it's very simple. Adoption - at its core - makes us question the legality, authority, voracity, and validity of parenthood. For most adoptive parents, first you must come to terms with an issue that strikes at the foundations of mortality: fertility. From birth, most of us are driven to form families. First we are nestlings, nurtured and weened and eventually taught to fly. Then we are nest-builders, filling our lives with the stuff necessary to drive life forwar...
Or How life is like a game of afternoon football --- Sometimes you feel like you are going to wipe out . But you don't . There are days when you try to let things go , but they don't go the direction you planned. Quite often you aren't paying attention at the right time . Other times it feels like you're ready , but you're not . Of course there are those times when you just don't care about the game . And then you finally make the connection and it all feels right .
I'm 32 years old and I still believe in you. Each year I struggle with the idea of selling Santa to my kids, I wonder if they'll be angry when they find out I've imagined your existence. And each year I'm reminded, in subtle ways, why I do it. Sure, there's the bonus of tricking my kids into good behavior - after all Santa is always watching. But that's not it, not really. Right now there are a lot of 'ughs' and 'ohs' and 'too soon's go 'round. Christmas carols already? Aisles filled with ornaments and wrappings and ribbons when we haven't even cut the turkey yet? Ugh, oh, too soon! But, Santa, you embody all that is good and right in the human being. You are kind and gentle, happy and generous, hard working and persistent. You don't let little things get you down, in fact they prop you up (go elves go!). You're overweight, but who cares? You don't see color, race, religion, or any of those artificial...